#and its just... a breath of fresh air
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👉👈 ive been trying my best... i think partly it helped to be poor, since i couldnt really get references done, so i was like "fine... ill do it myself". and seeing improvement has been... insane. ive been sometimes sad about my own art, but... some of the latest things actually working?? wheww
Appreciation post for all the beginner artists who work hard despite the AI looming over us. You are fabulous. You are precious. Keep up the hard work, you are needed.
#im also so jaded about ai#i start to think the world is terrible#i look at people made art#and its just... a breath of fresh air#a while back i went to a museum#i was having an ai convo beforehand#(pixel knows about this lmaoo. i be talking about it...)#and then i went into the painting exhibits#and i was speechless#its as if i was out of air#i kept looking so deeply#trying to think about how they mustve felt when making them#my friend went to school for art#so he was seeing the techniques and what they mustve been trying to do with the materials/tools#he got me talking#we both had different perspectives#but came together beautifully as we conversed about the paintings#it was a religious experience#art is so inherently *human*#not like. just on paper art. not just actual physically made art#but also the understanding of the beauty of things#like the sky when it dusks#yeah ai art can look “good” or whatever#but even if it does#thats not what art is *about*#maybe im rambling. maybe i lost the plot.#but there are cathedrals for everyone with eyes to see them#its not about just looking good. or about money. money is a good bonus (and art is a luxury that should be paid well)#but at the end of the day.the artist who made the work youre paying for put effort into it. and put effort into getting there to give you it#ccw rambles
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Second-guessing
#been overthinking all day today and needed to draw how it feels lately#a bit of a vent ahead#it’s gotten really lonely and almost alienating in a way#and the fandom seems so vastly different#and in a way I dont really feel ok in#i do take the steps to avoid anything that i don’t want to see#but it just feels like what i do is pointless#like what i draw is pointless#i know the more platonic/familial themes in my art will always be overshadowed#but its been a harsh truth ive been hit with#and it’s kind of heartbreaking#i’m forever grateful for the reminders of how my art is like a breath of fresh air#but man is it difficult to not just quit entirely#because it always falls back to: why am I doing this? what’s the point?#i’m sorry I feel like such a whiny loser when I talk about things like this#it’s all jumbled and all over the place but to put it simply it’s been super lonely#i just needed to say something before it completely boiled over#im sorry again
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✻ ► Falce Knight's ref sheet! ◄ ✻
► Dark Falce Knight ref sheet
► divider credits
- cape + scythe below!


#my art#kirby#kirby oc#falce knight#ref sheet#hopefully we'll keep this one for next year too#extremely funny to me how he kinds of gets. a ref sheet yearly#anyway the scythe and cape alone kind of bother me a bit. just because they look... eeh alone in a white background#but didn't wanted to clutter it too much either sooo its works!#anyway so it doesn't look THATT bad i added some dividers and player around with the post too. lalalan!!#the first page of the ref sheet has been on my basement for 3 months glad it can finally breath fresh air#and! i have been also working on his toyhouse page. hopefully you can all see it soon once im sure is done!#also will probably reblog this again because im going to make modifications for his prosthetic. again
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Sans au human redraws that i wont ever finish but did exclusively for @nu1lst4rs bc i love her
I ramble in the tags btw if u wanna read it
Also theyre all girls now btw and theyre wlw and poly cuz i say so
#i havent been active in the utmv fandom for a hot minute and its honestly such a breath of fresh air#its stifling in this fandom and it isnt healthy#it took me 8 years to realize that#i still love the characters and i dont ever think ill stop but its so nice to not be harrassed for having a different opinion#respectfully alot of people in the utmv fandom just need to mind their business and get over things#ive been bullied so many times by randos just bc i have slightly differing opinions from them#i talked with my wife about this and she agreed#anyways#sans au#utmv#nightmare sans#horror sans#killer sans#dust sans#bad sanses#bad sans poly#sans au humans#sans au human designs
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instagram art tag simulator
#actual sugar post#and the artists in the comments just trace anime#nothing wrong with tracing it’s just like. Man#the internet is so disgustingly cruel#and it happens everywhere it just takes different forms#tumblr is insidious about it. people will play the victim spreading rumours you’re a horrible person to ice you out#for like. not hating women or being black#so maybe insta is like a breath of fresh air for how unabashedly cruel and disgusting its users are#people on insta just go out and say shit that I wouldn’t repeat with a gun to my head#anyways point being#cringe culture is not dead#and we will never EVER get past it#fuck instagram#the internet as a whole tho too#doodles#Ms paint
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i think about splinter walking in on the aftermath of caged lungs a lot

#canary continuity#rottmnt#like#pov: you are splinter. you have spent the past few months feeling Off#theres this odd air in your home that you cant place and some distance from your sons again#but you trust their independence and you tend to wane in and out again already#and theyve all been encouraging you to go out there and get a social life!!#even before the curse you dont know about yet theyve been nothing but supportive#maybe a bit pushy lately. but you think theyre just happy for you#teenagers are rebellious. youre sure theyll use your absence for shenanigans but thats a part of being a teen#so you go for a night out.#its a break from the odd tension youve felt#you come home feeling relaxed. lighter. youre smiling to yourself as you walk back into your home#for a moment its quiet and you can just breathe in the comfortable silence#and then you smell blood. not the faint clinging tang of it youd smelled for a few weeks and dismissed. FRESH blood#your veins chill with panic. dread prickles down your spine. you run towards the smell#and then you hear your oldest sons SCREAMING.#both of them dont scream like donnie and mikey do. they SHOUT a lot. they dont SCREAM#they dont scream like their souls are being torn out of their chest. not like that#(for a moment you freeze. and all you can think about is torn flesh and the snap of bones. cheering. blood caked across your bruised fists.#and then the panic hits you at once and you BOLT#and you walk into the culmination of fifteen years of your careless mistakes.#and nothing is ever the same again
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The way Carla showed up absolutely smitten down bad horrendous in the gayest of outfits she could find just be called a friend ohhh the PAIN


#the way carla is the one thats down bad is such a breath of fresh air though#thank u corrie for girlkisser carla connor we all say in unison#shes so incredibly sexy though LISA PLEASE#shes clearly been through this before shes like augh she's just straight its whatever#but with carla literally turning up in this how could u at all think this is a straight lady#lisa ur so funny sometimes#coronation street#swarla#carla x lisa#i love lisa swain SHAKES HER affectionately#carla connor#lisa swain
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faifa when the (not-that) new kid expresses actual distaste towards his compulsions to disregard his own feelings and people-please: 😍😍😍
#listen im not sold on the “love fixes everything” aspect but goddammit if wine wont be the kick faifa needs to stand up for himself#wine is NOT impressed by the faifa the doormat#and jesus if thats not what faifa needs#yothagun and newton and the like have all resigned themselves to “faifa is just like that#nothing we can do“#love them. but its true#wine is frank and clear abput how he doesnt like it. breath of fucking fresh air#demo speaking#demo watches perfect 10 liners#perfect 10 liners
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as someone who has suffered with the fnaf gameverse characters not being given screentime seeing this is so nice, like just having ur characters show care towards eachother in split second shots all grouped up together just makes it clear they actually like these characters and care about them and enjoy that they're in charge of them
#its like when media will have their characters all stack up behind a wall and peek out on top of eachother one by one#like they just have fun w the characters and enjoy them#its a breath of fresh air to see in fnaf#pandas.txt#pre fnaf movie 2
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Rewatching "Love, War, & Mushrooms" and noticed something. Corvus and Soren say forest differently. Soren says it like "far-est" while Corvus says it like "for-est". And while it could just be how their vas say it, I'm gonna decide to go into one of my hcs.
That headcanon being: Kpp'Ar is hard of hearing and was the one to teach Soren how to talk because Soren was clingy towards him.
My reasoning:

Soren seems slightly irked that Kpp'Ar was always working on something up in his tower, not being able to see it barely even seemed to cross his mind. Which could be a sign that Soren would've preferred Kpp'Ar to spent that time with them(or just him if he went alone) instead of in his tower. He also seemed to know how long walking to Kpp'Ars house takes, meaning he, at some point, walked the distance without Claudia since Claudia didn't think it was that far due her always taking the carriage with their parents.
Now to Kpp'Ar being hard of hearing, my maman is hard of hearing and Kpp'Ar reminds me of her so he's hard of hearing by default. And since he's hard of hearing, he says words a little differently because he can't hear the sounds(based off of what maman said to me).
Meaning, if Kpp'Ar taught Soren how to talk then he'll obviously end up saying words "wrong" because he's mimicking the way Kpp'Ar talks. Which would explain why Soren says forest the way he does because Kpp'Ar also would've said it that same exact way. This could also be why Soren talks so loudly as it's the only way for Kpp'Ar to actually be able to hear him.
And since Corvus says it the more accepted way, he might've learned how to talk from someone who isn't hard of hearing since they could hear the sounds yk?
Now this is all based on me and my maman and what she told me. She taught me how to talk and I say fork and four a little funny because she struggles with her 'r's due to being hard of hearing. Like in elementary a teacher thought I asked for a fuck when I asked for a fork because of the way I say it, teacher only got it because of a friend.
#the dragon prince#soren#tdp soren#soren the dragon prince#corvus#tdp corvus#corvus the dragon prince#kpp'ar#kpp'ar the dragon prince#kpp'ar and soren#soren and kpp'ar#this is also why sorvus is so special to me#its very difficult to find someone who wont do everything they can to try and correct you when its not really needed#ive had teachers try to correct me multiple times while i was trying to talk so i became a very quiet child#it didnt help that people would always ask me why i talked with an accent#so seeing corvus not always trying to correct soren is like a breath of fresh air#he just accepts the way soren says things and moves on#giveusthesaga#continuethesaga#give us arc 3
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Rereading old haikyuu chapters, here's a bunch of silly Akaashis
#im feeling the haikyuu thoughts again since the movie came out#i haven't seen it. i've heard its great. im excited to see it#but im also sad cause it means fukurodani vs mujinazaka will probably never be animated#hghhhh im biased... cause i like fukurodani sooooo much#and this match is such a good introspective on akaashis and bokutos character with and without each other#and kiryu is such a breath of fresh air as a rival#but man akaashi is so funny im so sorry fandom reduces you a pretty face my guy#breaking off the group to sulk by yourself that is a high masking autistic right there#sitting in tenmas garbage hallway watching his friends on a stream man hes such a loser#i would love to see a spinoff of akaashi and tenmas manga adventures but maybe that's just me#haikyuu!!#sry to all the folks who came from elementary or aa or dunmeshi but my digital footprint started with gay volleyball boys lol#s/o to the manga that jumpstarted my egg cracking#i will provide no context#wheat rambles#akaashi keiji#delete later#?#i should be allowed to be cringe once in a while
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Geeking over the recent Go Yeongeun appearances... She's so cool and capable and reliable and I LOVE it when she gets a little mean 🥰
#talk#gsgw#go yeongeun my darling my moonbeam#she's like that one co-worker you're just thrilled to have around bc you can be rest assured that Things Will Be Done and#she's got such a good head on her shoulders that it's really a breath of fresh air when she's around...#like wow#what a reasonable coworker#and its so nice that we get more glimpses of her personality....#i also love how she and KSE clearly have a deep mutual respect for one another but that doesn't stop her from getting pissed whenever he#does something reckless or self-sacrificing#it's like. she gets it. but she's not going to be happy about it.#also love her and KSE's relationship in that... they could understand each other and their shared situations well enough to commiserate.#true close coworkers....#it's people like go yeongeun that makes work a little more bearable tbh#like it's good to know that among all these offputting people... you can at least count on one person...#now that d squad has more or less dissolved... temporarily or otherwise#go yeongeun is a wonderful familiar presence to both the audience (me) and kim soleum...
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My Favorite School Spirits Scenes&Dialogue
[Feel free to use any of these as writing prompts]
CW: School Spirits Spoilers, Innapropriate Language, Mentions of Murder
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(Maddie and Simon walk into the auto shop looking for evidence)
Simon: Talk about a perfect place to dump a body... He ever bring you here?
Maddie: .....
Simon: Oh jeez. This is where you guys hooked up?
Maddie: I'm not answering that.
Simon: Classy guy.. What, was the dumpster behind the Jack In The Box already taken?
Maddie: Oh, grow up. You tried to make a move on Celeste Molina at the bowling shoe return counter.
Simon: That was eighth grade!
Maddie: It was ninth! You just looked like an eighth grader.
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Xavier: And you know what they say...
Maddie: What do they say?
Xavier: Bros before... strong, independent women with bright futures, it's a very popular phrase.
Maddie: You're stupid... you're lucky you're cute.
Xavier: What the Lord deny in brain, he deliver in beauty.
Maddie: And boy did he deny.
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Maddie: Look, I can't really chat right now because I've got some holes in my memory to fill.
Wally: Hey, that's why I'm here, I can totally help you fill your holes.
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Maddie: ...Excuse me?
Wally: Oh, uh, obviously I did not mean for it to come off that way.. it was more of a hypothetical "I can help you figure things out if you need it."
Maddie: Okay... I can handle it myself. And I don't need to take advice from someone who looks like they're headed to aerobics class.
Maddie: You were murdered by your guidance counselor?
Rhonda: Yep. Guided me straight to the light.
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Rhonda: There's still people in this school that count on you. Dead people.
Maddie: Since when did you stop majoring in who-gives-a-fuck?
Rhonda: We all have to pitch in, pussytoes.
Maddie: I'm sorry, what did she just call me?
Charley: I.. I think it's probably a flower...?
Maddie: 'kay...
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Simon: You hate scary movies, just own it.
Nicole: That's not true. I liked Scream.
Simon: That's scary satire, doesn't count.
Maddie: And you closed your eyes the second the movie started.
Nicole: No I didn't.
Maddie: You spent half the movie looking for that twizzler you dropped on the ground.
Simon: And you don't even like black licorice, that's Maddie's thing.
Nicole: Yeah, well, Maddie didn't invent black licorice.
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Charley: The bigger disappointment was me thinking I would get to haunt all the assholes who tortured me while I was here. But uh, instead, I was haunted by all the jokes they made once I was gone.
Maddie: What do you mean?
Charley: I was a gay kid in the 90s who died because he was allergic to nuts.
Maddie: ...
Charley: Okay, that's where you're supposed to laugh.
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Simon: Nicole, you were supposed to give me a ride this morning. To school? Remember?
Nicole: I had stuff to do. Sorry.
Simon: I figured, you were AWOL all weekend, didn't answer a single text.
Nicole: I had an application deadline, okay? So the video statement was due, my portfolio looks like it was slapped together by a third grader, so..
(A minute later, Simon opens up her binder and looks at her portfolio)
Simon: Hmm. FYI, you're a very impressive third grader. I mean, I'm impressed.
(He turns to a page that's full of half a dozen photographs of Maddie)
Simon: Uhh.. and a little concerned. Damn, she knew you took all these?
Nicole: I took a bunch of you too, you're just.. not photogenic..
Simon: Yeah.. but.. this is intense. I mean, it's cool, it's just a lot of maddiemaddiemaddiemaddiemaddiemaddie —
Nicole: — What are you trying to say?
Simon: ..Nothing. Hey. Breathe, stop doubting yourself, okay? If admission asks why you're obsessed, say you worshipped her. Tell 'em she taught you how to parallel park.
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Maddie: Seriously? All we do is haunt the halls of the stupid school, and none of you have seen anything suspicious from Anderson?
Wally: Well, one time I saw Mr. Anderson misspell the word "Fundraiser" on a Boosters Club poster, and I – he forgot the D. I feel like that's pretty suspicious coming from an English teacher.
Charley: Wally.. I'm pretty sure that was a pun..? So I'm assuming he probably did that on purpose....
Rhonda: Sorry, sweets, we don't just stand around staring at the living all day.
Maddie: No.. you plan weekend fun. Like movie nights.
Mr. Martin: Well, we do what we can to break up the monotony, Maddie, that's all.
Charley: Well, if I may.. to be fair, watching the same five sports movies over and over again is kind of monotonous, Mr. Martin.
Wally: I thought you loved "Rudy".
Charley: No.
Wally: Wow. Just w– I can't even.
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Rhonda: How are you not pissed right now!?
Wally: I am pissed, Rhonda, I'm just trying to make sense of this all, this is very new to me, I don't know how I feel —
Rhonda: Try not to lose it in front of your crush.
Wally: OK, YOU DONT HAVE TO BE MAD AT ME RHONDA -- I DIDNT DO ANYTHING, BE MAD AT HIM —
Rhonda: I am mad at him.
Wally: Okay, you said you wouldn't bring that up again —
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Maddie: Have you seen my teacher Mr. Anderson?
Dawn: You mean like him with a murder weapon? Or your dead body?
Maddie: Yes!
Dawn: Nope! Though I am pretty easily distracted...
Maddie: Is it the.. bad acid?
Dawn: ....?
Maddie: Charley mentioned something about that..
Dawn: Well no, I've never taken drugs! I just meant from all the new ways you kids have had to connect... (starts talking about the internet)
Maddie: Okay.. well I've got to go talk to the bus crash kids.
Dawn: Oh, good luck. Those banjos are all bongo, if you know what I mean... You should let me come with! I speak bongo.
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Nicole: I'm sorry, when did you become all Scooby Doo?
Claire: ...
Nicole: I mean, two months ago, you were wiping your feet on Maddie's face, now you're... what? Trading in your pom pom for a trench coat?
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(Charley laying on the indoor pool bleachers with sunglasses over his glasses, smelling sunscreen)
Charley: Ah, I love this smell. Coconut, verbena.. you close your eyes, you could be anywhere. Miami.. Aruba...
Rhonda: Yeah, and then you open them, and there's a band-aid floating in the surf.
Charley: I miss a good sunburn.
Wally: I miss Debbie Gibson.
Rhonda: ...??
Wally: What? I thought we were talking about stuff that we miss.
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(Emilio walks past Charley and makes him gay panic)
Rhonda: Dial it downnn.. just because you smell like an Almond Joy, doesn't mean he knows you're here.
Wally (to Maddie): That's Mr. Figueroa. Emilio. He was Charley's crush when they were still students here. He sponsors the.. L-G..T —
Rhonda: — B.
Wally: B-T-Q club.. and Charley never misses a meeting.
Charley: I only go for the refreshments.. and uh, you're one to talk. You hit the gym every day to impress some boneheads who only know you as a name on a scoreboard.
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Charley: Okay, let's try hypnosis.
(Dawn randomly spawns in the back, sitting at the table eating the burrito)
Dawn: Oh, God no... Not that.
Wally: Hello, Dawn.. uhhh, how long — how long you been sitting there, girl?
Dawn: Since I smelled the burrito 😊
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(The ghosts are gathered in a circle so they can begin the anti-seance as Dawn waves an old, burnt Brussels sprout around as a substitute for sage)
Dawn: Settle, settle, settle, settle. We're under Capricornus.
Rhonda: ...who?
Dawn: The stars. Close your eyes, look inward, right to the back of your skull. What are you seeing, Mads?
Maddie: Uh, not much, it's dark..
Dawn: Dark!
Rhonda: Maybe it's the back of her skull.
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Xavier: I just -- I feel like I'm walking into a trap.
Maddie: Funny. I don't recall you being scared when you were hooking up in your backseat.
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Rhonda: If I thought it would help me cross over, I would go out there and tackle someone.
Mr. Martin: Okay, that's the spirit.. I think.
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Xavier: I wasn't tampering with anything, dad.
Sheriff Baxter: Man, how stupid do you think I am? What are we, runnin' neck and neck in the dumbass derby?
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Wally: I wanna make sure she's okay!
Rhonda: Let's check the faculty lounge..
Charley: She didn't say she needed a nap.
Rhonda: Maybe she went to speak with Simon. Sorry.
Wally: Why are you sorry?
Rhonda: You wince every time you hear his name.
Wally: This is not me wincing, this is my happy face.
Rhonda: Ah, could have fooled me.
Wally: Look -- I know she's still trying to figure her stuff out, but I can wait. We're not even at halftime.
Rhonda: I don't know what that means.. but if that is your happy face, remind me to hide when you're really happy.
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(Maddie and her mom arguing before Maddie's death)
Maddie: You wanna take everything that dad gave me? Here. Take this.
(Maddie rips her necklace off and hands it to her mom)
Maddie: You could pawn it, get 40 bucks from it. Buy yourself a fucking welcome mat.
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Xavier: If I ask her about the phone, she's just gonna bail!
Simon: Stop being a fucking coward!
Xavier: A coward -- FUCK YOU SIMON.
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Simon: SAYONARA, SHIT RIVER!! Northwestern won't know what hit 'em!!
(proceeds to bump into somebody walking through the hall as he says that)
Maddie: Slow your roll, we're not even in yet.
(Bell rings)
Mr. Anderson: You degenerates are late!
Nicole: I'm not even in your class..
Mr. Anderson: You're still late.. and degenerate.
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Claire: What did you tell the police?
Mr. Anderson: I told them the truth. That I took that money to pay off my dad. Is that okay with you? Cool. Can I go?
Claire: Did you say anything about me!?
Mr. Anderson: Y'know what? I don't remember! 😛
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Mr. Martin: It sounds like you're struggling. Write your obituary.
Maddie: Uh, no.
Mr. Martin: Everyone here has written one. It helps us to focus on the highlights of our lives, the sweet victories.
Maddie: I've gotten out of writing papers before because of cramps. I'm pretty sure death counts as a good excuse.
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Simon: Happy?
Maddie: Yeah, I'm thrilled. My DNA is on a boiler room wall and my piece of shit boyfriend might have something to do with that. Does it get much happier!?
Simon: Oh, so now you come around? How many times did I tell you that dude was sketchy?
Maddie: This isn't about him keeping hand lotion in his glove compartment, Simon.
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Simon: Bathrooms.. you're not gonna linger and wait there... right?
Maddie: ...
Simon: MADDIE
Maddie: Relax, I left before I saw anything.... But you should really wash your hands more.
Simon: Okay and now I'm hanging up. Byeeeee!
#been writing this for 3 hours straight pls help#also the one with maddies mom is just sad tbh#but maddie finally standing up to her mom was like a breath of fresh air#its sad that those are the last things she ever said to her though#ignore how long this is#idk why I made this so long#i was thinking maybe if people wanted some funny quotes from their fav characters#but yeah just enjoy this or something. i guess most of these would only apply to supernatural whodunit stories like this one#if people ever wanted to actually use these dialogue lines as writing prompts#also no need to credit me for this if you use these for ur stories/fics#idk where i was even going with this#school spirits#maddie nears#madison nears#rhonda school spirits#mr. martin#mr martin#charley school spirits#xavier baxter#simon elroy#mr anderson#dialogue prompt#school spirits rhonda#writing#writing prompts#sheriff baxter#sandra nears#nicole hererra#claire zomer#wally clark
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I just wanna say, thank you for sharing your art and ocs with us. I know you've struggled with art theft and rude behavior and burnout and all kinds of things, but its been such a source of joy and inspiration all these years to see your insane creativity and talent and personal expression. So thank you--thank you for risking all that unpleasantness to share the things you love. Admittedly I do kind of miss the old days of seeing your characters and art all the time, but I absolutely understand and respect your moving on. I'm glad you're living your life, and its still a joy to see the things you make, even if its not as often. Anyway happy new year, I hope this year brings you tons of kindness, fulfillment, and happiness.
Ah gosh that means so much to me, thank you dearly!
I genuinely love sharing my stuff a lot, and I love interacting with you guys and talking about what I make :) It makes me really happy that so many of you enjoy what I do! It's honestly a huge reason as to why I keep doing it.
And don't misunderstand me, my lack of art recently isn't really due to me moving on or not wanting to share more or sharing less (though I don't share as much lore as I used to due to the theft). But mostly it's because I have much more going on irl these days. I have a much bigger demand for my time irl with my partner, friends, work, family and all of that. I draw and chill when I can, I would do a lot more if I had the time haha
I also miss when I used to draw and share a lot, but a part of why I did so much of that was because I did not have many friends or much going on at all, and I had few other hobbies than "make art" so I just did that for much more time than what was probably healthy ^^; it's less about moving on from drawing and more about being able to spend time being a proper person now. Also some of the stuff i work with on my own time are things that take a lot of time to finish so it looks like I do a lot less
Though maybe one day I can finally dedicate myself full-time to art (in a healthier way) and just let loose! I hope you will stick around for that :]
Thank you for taking the time to write this out, it genuinely means a lot to me! I hope you have a fantastic new year too, and again, definitely hope you will stick around to see all the cool stuff I have cooking >:)
#ask#anon#part of growing up is just realizing theres a lot more to do than the one thing you thought was your only talent#i adore drawing its a part of me but its no longer ALL of me! and that has freed me to explore a lot of things more#im experimenting more with art#im having so much fun with the new stuff im making#a breath of fresh air for sure#i got a little sidetracked answering you sorryyy but i really want people to understand that i dont draw less because ive lost interest#in either my art or my characters. i love all of them like you wouldnt believe. i couldnt put it into words if i tried writing for a#thousand years and then for another thousand#i just lack the time and often energy to whip out shit like i used to. just means what i do now is a lot better quality though !#and you can rest assured whatever I draw is something i REALLY wanted to draw#ARG IM GETTING SIDETRACKED AGAIN
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Goth! Nico/ Surfer! Percy AU Part 8!
Hi, sorry for the wait!! I was a little in doubt about if making this chapter in Percy's or Nico's POV, tbh, but in the end I decided that we're back to Percy! I always enjoy writing him being all smitten and in love <33
Enjoy~
Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7
You can also read it on AO3!!
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Percy had been looking at his phone for what felt like hours, staring at the empty message box and the name written on top, trying to find something, anything, to write that wouldn't sound extremely lame.
He knew his friends were looking at him, probably thinking he was the most ridiculous lovesick fool they had ever seen - which was fair, honestly, because Percy did feel like he was one second away from screaming into the void and starting to roll around on the cafe’s floor.
So, yes, he was a lovesick fool - but a lovesick fool with his crush's number now safely saved into his phone.
Crush.
It had been two days since his meeting with Nico at the beach, and for the whole time Percy had felt like the word wasn't right, wasn't nearly heavy enough to embrace the way he felt. When he had told Annabeth, she had looked at him and smiled.
“I can see that, Percy, but you do realize you barely know him, don't you?”
It was true, of course it was - yet it didn't matter.
Percy could still feel the warmth of Nico's hand in his like it was engraved on his skin. The need to hold it again was almost overwhelming, Percy could feel himself going crazy for it.
They had held hands, and it had felt like Nico hadn't wanted to let go either, that he had wanted to make the contact last as long as possible just like Percy had.
Percy wanted to text him. But what do you even write to the guy who's been haunting your mind for the past few months and who you aren't exactly friends with but at the same time it feels like you're so much more?
“Hi, it's Percy, how are you?”
Yeah, no, that was lame.
“Hey, would you like to go on a date with me?”
Too forward, definitely not.
Percy groaned, frustrated.
“I swear to god, Jackson, if you don't stop staring at that phone right now, I'm gonna kick you out of this place”.
Thalia's voice pulled him violently out of his thoughts.
“This is a public space, Thalia, you can't kick me out”, he replied without even looking at her.
“Oh yeah, watch me”.
Percy only looked up at her when a kick did actually hit his legs under the table.
“Ehi!”
Thalia smirked down at him. “Told ya”, she said. “I can't believe I only come here like two times a year - and when I do, you're too busy to look at your phone to actually talk to me? That's low, Jackson”.
Percy rolled his eyes, but the pull in his guts let him know that he did feel guilty. He sighed and finally put his phone down, straightening himself and going back to sip his coffee. Not that he would apologize to Thalia, but he could admit to himself that she was right; and after all, if he put aside for a moment his current concern, he really was happy to see her. It had been months since the last time they had the chance to hang out together like this.
“Don't mind him, Thalia”, Annabeth jumped in. “He just got his dream boy's number! And now he's trying to figure out what to write to him”.
She said it like it was ridiculous, but Percy remembered how happy she had been for him when he had told her about the events of two days ago, so he didn't take it to heart.
“His what!?”, Thalia almost screamed, accompanying every word with a painful slap on Percy's shoulder. “Why don't I know anything about this! How could you guys not tell me, come on!”
He swatted her hand away. “Ouch, ow, ow, okay, alright!”
“I can't believe this! I can't even remember the last time you had a crush”.
“Yeah, well”, Percy said, and lowered his eyes. “Doesn't really feel like a crush, anymore”.
“Oh woah, then it must be serious”, she said. “Come on, tell me everything”.
And so he told her - told her about the first time he saw the pretty goth boy working at the beach kiosk, about how long he had spent just looking at him. Trying to leave out the most embarrassing parts was no use because of course Annabeth had to jump in to point out how ridiculous he had been the whole time and how much he had panicked to just go and talk to him to buy something, and obviously she couldn't leave out his plan to impress Nico with his fantastic surfing moves.
“Annabeth, stop making me look like a loser!”
“I'm not making you look like a loser, Seaweed brain, I’m just telling the truth!”.
Percy kept talking, and he kept thinking about Nico, and he knew that he had the most enamored smile painted on his lips as he spoke. He talked and he couldn't stop because, god, he did love to talk about him.
They had only seen each other the previous day and Percy missed him already. He definitely needed to find the courage to text him - perhaps he didn't need to think too much about it, maybe a simple hey how are you would do, after all.
He wondered if Nico was doing the same, looking at his phone and trying to find something to write to him, or maybe waiting and hoping for a text to arrive.
He was so focused on recounting everything that he didn't notice the way Thalia's expression went from curious to surprised, then to confused, and finally to pensive.
“Wait, what did you say this guy's name is?”
Percy stopped in his rambling. “Nico, his name’s Nico”, he said, and finally noticed how Thalia seemed to be deep in thought. “What’s that face?”
It took a moment for her to reply. “Nico as in… Nico Di Angelo?”
Percy stopped and looked at her like she had grown a second head. “What?”
Next to him, he heard Annabeth’s voice echoing the same sentiment.
“What are you talking about?”
“Goth boy, shortie, long hair and lots of piercings, doesn’t seem like he own anything but black clothes, looks like he doesn’t know how to smile-”
“Hey, I’ll let you know that he has the prettiest smile you could ever imagine!”
Thalia waved him off at the same time that Annabeth said “Yes that does sound exactly like him”.
“And he works at the beach kiosk with a blond guy?”
A long moment of silence passed during which Percy kept staring at Thalia as her words kept swarming around in his head, blinking at her trying to process what she had just said.
It couldn’t be, could it?
“You know him!?”
Percy could feel his heart run around in his chest, pumping blood loudly in his ears.
That felt so much like fate.
“Huh, kind of?”, Thalia said. “I saw him a couple of times when I went to visit my brother”.
“Your brother?”, Annabeth asked.
Thalia nodded, smiling. “The blond guy working at the kiosk. That’s my brother, Jason”.
Another moment of silence passed before Percy finally came to his senses. “What the hell, why didn’t you tell us!”
This time, it was his turn to swat Thalia’s arm over and over. She hit back with just as much strength.
“Ow, why would I tell you! I didn’t even know you guys went to that beach - see, your fault you don’t tell me anything!”
Percy could feel Annabeth rolling her eyes at their antics.
But he had more pressing things to think about. He couldn’t believe it- really?
It was so stupid, feeling giddy for something like this, but Percy couldn’t help the smile that rose to his lips. They were connected.
You’re so ridiculous, Percy Jackson, so ridiculous, he told himself, as his heart danced in his chest.
“Nico Di Angelo”, he murmured to himself.
He knew his friends were looking at him ready to laugh at him. He looked at Annabeth. “See? I told you he must be an angel!”
They did laugh at him at that, and Percy felt so light he joined them.
“You really are so ridiculous, Seaweed Brain”.
“Hey, can’t a man be a little in love?”
They stopped in their laughter to stare at him, and it took Percy a moment to realize what he had said. He felt himself blush - he hadn’t even admitted it to himself yet, yet the words had felt way too natural on his tongue, leaving his lips without him even thinking about it.
“Percy….”
“I know”, he cut her off, looking away. For some reason, his hand felt warm. “I know, I don’t know him all that well and it’s too soon. But… that’s why I said a little”.
“So you like him for real, huh?”. Thalia asked. The look in her eyes was earnest in a way that Percy wasn’t very used to. He and Thalia had been friends for a long time now, but it wasn’t often that they ended up talking seriously to each other.
Percy nodded. He really didn’t think he had ever liked anyone like he liked Nico before.
“Now, I don’t know him too well”, Thalia said. “But Jason told me once that it took him a pretty long time to get close to him ‘cause Nico isn’t an easy person - so, from what I know and from what you told me, I can say that you are an exception to this rule”.
Percy’s heart was running miles.
He thought about Nico so easily talking to him, smiling at him, thought of him asking about him out of worry, of him taking his hand and getting in the ocean with him despite his fear of it.
“I can ask Jason about him, if you want. But”, Thalia continued, pointing a finger at him. “You better text him - today”.
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When he went home that evening, the phone felt heavy in his head.
He would see Nico tomorrow anyway, he didn’t have to text him, he could easily wait until he could talk to him face to face. Or he could simply wait until tomorro’s evening and see if Nico would be at the beach after his shift again. He could.
It didn’t feel like the right thing to do. It felt like the coward way out, the one that wouldn’t lead to anything more.
And so, before he could think too much about it, he pressed send.
Me: Ehi, Nico! You have the afternoon shift tomorrow, right? Let’s hang out at the beach again after it?
#percy jackson#percy jackson and the olympians#heroes of olympus#nico di angelo#nicercy#percico#pernico#percy x nico#goth/surfer percico#my fics#sorry for the longer than usual wait! ive been trying to work on original stuff lately#but i sat down today and wrote this all in one go lmao#i love how easy it comes to me writing this fic#is such a breath of fresh air#i hope you like it!! i loved writing thalia and percy's interaction it was so much fun#anyway#i saw that people posting fics on tumblr tend to tag people so they dont lose updates#and its just coming to me that maybe i could do that too#if theres anyone who want to be tagged lmao
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no way am I seeing people claim that theyre being queerbaited by Star Trek with Spirk in SNW. if you honestly and genuinely believe that theyre going to make Spirk canon then that is on you lol
#theyre never making Spirk canon and thats literally fine#we need to get out of this thing where fandoms decide ships NEED to be canon#ships dont need to be canon they just need to be fun#Spirk is very fun and it is also never going canon#if youve convinced yourself that its going to be canon then thats your own fault#'but why do they promote Kirk and Spock scenes in SNW' because Kirk and Spock are the most iconic characters in the franchise#their friendship is the most iconic relationship of the franchise#theyre one of the most iconic sci fi duos of all time#of course SNW is gonna promote that they'll have scenes together??#theyre not doing it to queerbait theyre doing it to hype up the most iconic characters interacting more#because it is a prequel#thats literally it#if you convince yourself its something else then you perhaps need to log off for a bit#and breathe fresh air
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